I decided that since I have not released a blog post on this blog in a life time (so to speak) today is cause for some celebration! The best full album I’ve heard in 2017, Never Go Unknown, is out today digitally as per this announcement on Adam Wendler’s Facebook page (full album credits and the beautiful album cover art is also there) I say that as my own personal opinion, realizing I’ve got the bias of having the singer-songwriter as a younger brother (but biases aside, Juno-award winning producer Siegfried Meier did decide to tackle this album with Adam.) I know that there have been many times where I have heard a song long before it is polished and unleashed to the masses.
Such was the case back in January when I had my second or third (both 2nd and 3rd happened within days of each other) bout in the hospital with infections including pneumonia. I felt absolutely horrible at the time! I did not have much of a desire for anything. And while the hospital seemed the best option that day, my lack of desire for anything included the desire to make the call about actually going to the hospital. Don’t get me wrong, I wanted to get out of this position of suffering where I found myself. But to be the one to make the decision about actually going to hospital seemed silly to me when there was a plan in place to go at a specific time that I felt I agreed to, after a plan for an earlier time was not advised due to the busy nature of hospital emergency at the time. I think it was a situation where (a) there was a feeling that there was no real reason for anything, no sense of hope or a personal purpose of existence, and (b) when health is down, patience can decrease (patients aren’t necessarily patient ;)).
After over a year of being on different antibiotics, both oral and IV and some multiple times, it got to a point where from a medical perspective some were suggesting the possibility of amputating my lower left leg. In my mind, that would involve rehabilitation which would result in me having to figure out how to do things all over again while also being responsible for telling everyone helping me what to do (and keep in mind this guy who’s thoughts you’re reading is an introvert.) So you know for a guy who had done many seemingly insignificant things, maybe euthanasia would be a better idea? That was logical in my mind. But life’s not all about logic. I’m sure some readers would agree it would be best if the mind would just quiet down at times!
But anyway, it was that evening, sitting in the emergency room with my mother (and being in contact with my brother (via technology, which is significant because he’s not the most keen to sit there and text or chat when he could be playing his guitar instead. But who can blame him, listen to the album (links toward end of the post) to find x in the following equation: talent + drive & determination + the right connections = x ) For whatever reason, “Until You Came Around” was going through my head in the way that songs do, one part of it on repeat. The lines “It takes an honest man to go, but a better man to stay” were just jumping out at me. So powerful, yet so simple. Sometimes it just feels like there’s no hope, the blinders are on and darkness is what is visible. Love can be present but not observed or felt in that place. It depends how deep you are there and what your beliefs and convictions are just how much you can go in the spiral. But if you can tough it out, who knows what good will come when you see the love and support that was always there. I recently read a couple of good blog posts written by someone I know from my days attending summer camps that are related to allowing love from others and loving people well which I found particularly insightful. So feel free to check them out here and here.
The following quote I’ve heard many times (being a Michael Jackson fan), but it finally seems to have more meaning to me, given the above story:
“I am an instrument of nature. Love is my message.” – Michael Jackson
I feel as though “nature’s” voice was coming through to me in the song.
Amazing album that has the potential to reach so many people, and give so many more the opportunity to simply get their groove on.
You can listen to the album at these links for now (other online platforms to come):
More posts to come!