I decided that since I have not released a blog post on this blog in a life time (so to speak) today is cause for some celebration! The best full album I’ve heard in 2017, Never Go Unknown, is out today digitally as per this announcement on Adam Wendler’s Facebook page (full album credits and the beautiful album cover art is also there) I say that as my own personal opinion, realizing I’ve got the bias of having the singer-songwriter as a younger brother (but biases aside, Juno-award winning producer Siegfried Meier did decide to tackle this album with Adam.) I know that there have been many times where I have heard a song long before it is polished and unleashed to the masses.
Such was the case back in January when I had my second or third (both 2nd and 3rd happened within days of each other) bout in the hospital with infections including pneumonia. I felt absolutely horrible at the time! I did not have much of a desire for anything. And while the hospital seemed the best option that day, my lack of desire for anything included the desire to make the call about actually going to the hospital. Don’t get me wrong, I wanted to get out of this position of suffering where I found myself. But to be the one to make the decision about actually going to hospital seemed silly to me when there was a plan in place to go at a specific time that I felt I agreed to, after a plan for an earlier time was not advised due to the busy nature of hospital emergency at the time. I think it was a situation where (a) there was a feeling that there was no real reason for anything, no sense of hope or a personal purpose of existence, and (b) when health is down, patience can decrease (patients aren’t necessarily patient ;)).
After over a year of being on different antibiotics, both oral and IV and some multiple times, it got to a point where from a medical perspective some were suggesting the possibility of amputating my lower left leg. In my mind, that would involve rehabilitation which would result in me having to figure out how to do things all over again while also being responsible for telling everyone helping me what to do (and keep in mind this guy who’s thoughts you’re reading is an introvert.) So you know for a guy who had done many seemingly insignificant things, maybe euthanasia would be a better idea? That was logical in my mind. But life’s not all about logic. I’m sure some readers would agree it would be best if the mind would just quiet down at times!
But anyway, it was that evening, sitting in the emergency room with my mother (and being in contact with my brother (via technology, which is significant because he’s not the most keen to sit there and text or chat when he could be playing his guitar instead. But who can blame him, listen to the album (links toward end of the post) to find x in the following equation: talent + drive & determination + the right connections = x ) For whatever reason, “Until You Came Around” was going through my head in the way that songs do, one part of it on repeat. The lines “It takes an honest man to go, but a better man to stay” were just jumping out at me. So powerful, yet so simple. Sometimes it just feels like there’s no hope, the blinders are on and darkness is what is visible. Love can be present but not observed or felt in that place. It depends how deep you are there and what your beliefs and convictions are just how much you can go in the spiral. But if you can tough it out, who knows what good will come when you see the love and support that was always there. I recently read a couple of good blog posts written by someone I know from my days attending summer camps that are related to allowing love from others and loving people well which I found particularly insightful. So feel free to check them out here and here.
The following quote I’ve heard many times (being a Michael Jackson fan), but it finally seems to have more meaning to me, given the above story:
“I am an instrument of nature. Love is my message.” – Michael Jackson
I feel as though “nature’s” voice was coming through to me in the song.
Amazing album that has the potential to reach so many people, and give so many more the opportunity to simply get their groove on.
You can listen to the album at these links for now (other online platforms to come):
More posts to come!
I came across the following video via up-worthy which has a lot of different items shared on facebook these days. I thought it was worth referring to in a post when I watched it a couple of different times because it has a great message to it and also feels to me like it’s rather inspirational.
I had known Patrick Stewart simply as a man who acted in Star Trek. I knew nothing of who he was or where he came from and what his past involved. I would never have guessed that he suffered anything related to domestic violence or otherwise. I don’t think about that with regard to actors or any celebrity generally. I see them in their roles, and I just never know the real person behind the role. Aside from a couple different celebrities, I just have no knowledge of the person that exists which creates the role in a movie or television show, or for that matter in a music video and accompanying song(s).
I never gave a thought to the history of Stewart’s family history, whether his father or mother had any involvement in war times or anything of that nature. I never gave a thought to the matter. But he demonstrates very well how his past has inspired his passions in the present moment. He very clearly shows how living as a child through domestic violence between his mother and father inspired his passion to help women living in or growing past domestic violence situations, to help those with PTSD and in particular veterans of the military/army who have had to deal with a lot of psychological trauma in their careers.
I’ve said before in this blog how I hope to be able to inspire or help others. I would love to be able to have something I’ve done, said, or written be cause for inspiration or assistance to someone in need of a little guidance in their life or a boost in their self-esteem. I would absolutely love to have a role in reducing suffering for a wide variety of people such as Stewart has been doing with his life outside his acting career. It would be absolutely awesome to be able to have a positive effect on this world through having a positive effect, as described here, on individual people in this world. I hope to positively impact humanity, one person at a time, to create a better society and a better world in some way shape or form. Perhaps I need to ponder further how I can have this effect based on my past and who I am as a person.
I know my life as a “disabled” person and the experiences I have had as a result of this situation can be possible means for others to be inspired. The experiences certainly have had a variance on the positivity spectrum. I know that there are various things such as being an oldest son, a male, growing up in a small town atmosphere with some fairly frequent visits to a city atmosphere such that I was never fully isolated in the small town. I’m sure being the child in a family with a stay at home or part time working mother throughout my life at home would have an impact on who I’ve become as well as having a father who travels frequently vs. a father who either stays at home or works a 9-5 job in the same town/city so he’s home regularly for family to eat together might also have effects. I believe each and every experience can influence who or what an individual becomes. I believe that Patrick Stewart exemplifies this and shows his strong sense of compassion for fighting for things he was unable to fight for during his childhood for obvious reasons. In my journey to determining where I’m going in life, I feel that this video of him demonstrates clearly how he is a man of strength to aspire to become similar, if not identical to in passion for life and for making a difference in the lives of others.